Well, it doesn’t seem real, but one of my blog posts has been published on Scary Mommy! It’s a parenting website with about 1.4 million followers! If you’re interested, here is the link: Being A Mom Without A Mom.
What makes this so interesting is that I didn’t write this article with the intent to publish it. Once again, I was feeling strong emotions and just jotted this down as a post on my other blog (A Writing Mama’s Journal). I shared it with some of my Facebook friends. It received positive feedback. A few of my friends encouraged me to submit it.
I was honestly on the fence about it. This piece is about my mother. She was an incredibly private person, so I struggled with this. I didn’t want to do anything that would violate her personal life. That’s the main reason I haven’t really published anything about what happened to her during her 15-year illness. I have about 300 pages from my days of sitting next to her in the hospital, rehab facilities, nursing home and finally, in her house, under hospice care.
I don’t know if I would ever publish that. My wounds are still too raw from the entire experience.
But I think this piece really shows how much I loved her. And still love her. So, I dedicate this to you, Rita. I love you. I miss you. I wish you were still here. Until we meet again.